What the Fuck?

I'm experiencing a weird convergence of the Universe right now. I'm busy enough trying to figure out the status of things with my current (and wonderful) girlfriend, Amy. I got a phone call 3 days ago from my ex fiancee's father telling me that he thinks now is a good time to try and get back in contact with her because maybe she wants to or is ready or something??? It wasn't very clear and not really enough to convince me to call a girl that fucked me over as much as she did. Finally, today I get a phone call from my sweet, albeit messed up, ex wife who I'm pretty sure was high. Although I was touched when we got back in touch, things have taken a turn I didn't expect.

This is more drama than I'm used to. I work hard to keep things pretty simple. I was so upset about all the drama of Miya (the fiancee) cheating on me and leaving me because it felt like I was thrust into a soap opera out of what had been a pretty stable and happy life. At least it was for a few years before that.

I don't really feel like things are dramatic. I mean it is and it makes for good conversation but I don't feel like this stuff has control over me. Of course it affects me and makes me think about the past but at least it doesn't throw me off track completely. Show up, pay attention and let go of the results. Thats what one of my teachers told me and it seems to work pretty well.

It is a happy new year

i feel great. I've been playing around with henna tattoos. I could never do it for real, but arent they cool?
I reallly like my new job. I love the city I live in. I love the apt I live in. I'm having a lot of fun in life. I bought a new surfboard after moving here to Tel Aviv and I've been surfing whenever there are decent waves. Somedays I get to go before work which is awesome. I wake up early, walk sheemy (the dog), and I jump on my scooter, Pepe La Moto, with my board on my side and drive the two minutes down to the beach. Not a bad life at all.
I wish I could say my love life has been going as well. I'm a lot more cynical and afraid of being hurt nowadays. I feel like when I was younger I was so eager to throw myself into something if it felt right. Now I don't know what to do. In someways I feel like people have gotten more complicated and women less predictable. Sadly enough, it's actually that they have become predictably unpredictable. Anyway, I just got dissapointed again. I was seeing a girl I really liked and I felt that she really liked me, and it ended so she could be confused with her ex boyfriend.
I'm going to work on a new art piece for my house and I was thinking of using the words "loving is courageous but there's no other choice"or "love like you've never been hurt."
A few exciting things worth mentioning: At the end of this month I have eight years sober (thank you god). I just bought a plane ticket to chicago for thanksgiving for our family reunion there.
I'd have to say I'm happy with this jeremy blog entry.