Sunday, December 16, 2007

time to grow

I recently got some constructive criticism from a guy at work. As a preface, its really nice when someone takes sincere time to give this type of guidance because I know the easier thing is to not take the time to really say what you think.
I wrote a business plan to propose a change in the structure of our dept. He said that he thought it could have been a lot better given what he knows about what I really think and how intelligent and articulate I really am. He gave me really good suggestions on how I can make it better mostly having to do with structuring and format. Its good for me to know because i really have never learned that kind of stuff, so it would make sense that I have a lot to learn, and that should be exciting that i simply don't know and not that I suck but it still tapped into my insecurities of feeling like I'm not good enough and I don't have what "it" takes to make it. I want to think of myself as teachable and eager to learn, but as he was telling me i had to focus extra hard, telling myself, "be open. be receptive. don't let your ego get in the way." I guess I' happy to learn and be open about the things I want to, but lord help me if someone shines a lite on weaknesses of mine for me.


Well, its already several days later and I'm happy with how I've handled it. I am really putting my best foot forward and trying to learn more about this. I'm also feeling grateful to this guy for his gentle butt-kicking. It worked. Sometimes its the gentle push we didn't even know we needed.

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